Day 4 ~ Dear Siblings

hey loves!!! i have been kinda busy & work has been kicking my butt but im back lol so here i go .....

Dear Jamar & Naomi,
I love you guys. we may be thousands of miles away but i love you guys!!! lol we may have different moms & the same dead beat dad but you guys are still a part of me & will always be a part of my heart. jamar you have become the best dad with your son. you are showing him all the love our dad did not give to us. naomi you have become a beautiful young lady that reminds me of myself so much lol. i wish we lived closer so we could become much closer but hey things happen & people move away but thank God for cellphones & fb lol.

Dear Clarence,
my big lil bro!!! you do some crazy & stupid stuff sometimes but hey you are a part of my heart & i love you! i have lost you too many times to your stupid actions but i think you are finally on the right track. i just wish there was still another way b/c of all the trouble in the world right now but im still proud of you. you are a marine hoping to one day fight for our country. i just fear that i might lose you. i remember crying so hard when you left for training b/c i know you were in it for good. but i know God has you wrapped in his arms & i hope everything works out for your good.

peace, love, dance
tammy

The Veronicas: Leave Me Alone

hey loves!! i know i just blogged like a hour or so ago but im really feeling this song. its old but its describes how i felt once my last relationship ended. i use to always hear it in claires & now i found it again lol. the song is called "Leave Me Alone" by The Veronicas.

Day 3 ~ Dear Parents

Dear Mom,
you are my everything. you know almost everything about me. you know when im happy, when my skies are grey, or when i just need a bear hug. i think thats something i will always remember about you & that is your bear hugs lol. you have never left me like other people within my life & sometimes i believe you & God are the only people who will never turn their back on me. no matter wat stupid stuff i may do you will always be there beside me, correcting me, & telling me wat to look out for next time. You work so hard & never gave up. you were the mom & dad within my life. you made sure i received the best education & even now you continue to put up with the bs at your job so that i am able to attend MSU. now you are working to help me get a car b/c i deserve to be free & go as i please. you have never missed a show or a performance; you may not be the loud mom cheering me on but you were always the quiet one just sitting there watching & smiling. when i dance, i always picture your face & how proud you are of me. i know sometimes i let you down when i do stupid things regarding my life but you always stand by me. i couldnt ask for a more perfect mom. i wish i could give you the world but for now all i can give you is my heart & i just wanna to let you know that you are my world.

Dear Dad,
Thanks for missing every performance I ever was in. thanks for not attending one game i ever cheered at. thanks for forcing my mom to pay for my elementary school & college tuition b/c you decided you didnt want to take care of me. thanks for making me & my mom stronger & showing us we can provide for ourselves & we dont have to rely on a dude to provide for us. thanks for showing me that most guys within this world are worthless & are a younger version of you. thanks for the happy birthday calls but no money to help my mom out. thanks for everything ... thanks for nothing


peace, love, dance
tammy

Day 2 ~ Dear Crush

So i kinda fall behind due to troubling circumstances but in the end i know everythng is going to work out b/c im placing my situation into God's hands. so here is my letter ......

Dear crush,

o how i miss you lol. we havent talked or even chilled in so long but i guess i should have know it will never be anything but a crush. the summer is almost over & you going back to school & im still stuck here in wack paterson going to wack montclair lol. i have had the biggest crush on you since high school & i remember seeing you every morning wishing we would get over the crush stage but we never did i see. i dont crush on just anyone; you have to have something special & sweetie you are truly special lol. you are doing something wit your life, you are hard worker, you are book & street smarts, you are athletic & much more. who wouldnt crush on you lol. but hey you got your groupies at school so you got wat you need but i will always have the biggest crush on you & you already know it lol. love ya buddy!!!

peace, love, & dance
Tammy

Day 1 ~ Dear Best Friend

Dear Best Friend(s),

i love you guys!!!!!! jasmine & kiara you guys are my heart. you have been there for me since high school even though we have some dry areas lol. we have experienced about everything together like literally lol. sometimes we barely talk but we always make sure we meet up to party & have an awesome time. i remember we all became close in sign language where we use to get in trouble almost every day for talking of course. i remember being in african american assembly with jasmine & then prom with kiara. the car rides to montclair with jasmine every wednesday & much more. you guys are everything to me & you are willing to put up wit my crazy behind lol.

i use to have a best friend when i was younger but i see that didnt work out. o well the show goes on with or without you. i thought she was the co-star but instead she was an extra & everyone knows they are not really that important. im still shining even brighter than when were younger. You went away to school & forgot where your true friends were but hey you will learn eventually lol. i still love you tiara but i will never chase after you. if you are not God then you are not worth the chase.

i still believe that there is one more person out there that will be my ultimate best friend so this is to you. i cant wait till the day we meet & everything will be awesome & right. i love my besties but you will be there when they are not. you will probably be there more than them lol.

30 Days ~ 30 Letters

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

So im going this challenge wit my buddy tasha & im kinda excited. it gives me a chance to really express how i feel about certain issues involving each topic.

Tired of being "IT" its time to "CATCH ME"

hey loves!!!! how are you?!?! life has been good lately [well kinda lol] work has been a headache like usual & my social life has been ok but of course there is always one dude to mess it up lol. gotta vent for a minute lol. so im feeling this dude & i have been feeling him for a long time but im think he is not feeling me the same way at all. i wish he would just come out & say it but of course he will not & i will continue to be lost.

im tired of running after him & in return he gives me his ass to kiss so at the end of the day im done chasing him. he got his life & i got my life & its better if they dont even clash. so im tired of chasing someone who i thought was actually worth the chase but at the end of the day you are a jerk just like the rest of them.

its hard to give up the chase when he is everything you want & more but this chic is tired of being "it" & is ready to have someone run after her. come caught me♥