Day 4 ~ Dear Siblings

hey loves!!! i have been kinda busy & work has been kicking my butt but im back lol so here i go .....

Dear Jamar & Naomi,
I love you guys. we may be thousands of miles away but i love you guys!!! lol we may have different moms & the same dead beat dad but you guys are still a part of me & will always be a part of my heart. jamar you have become the best dad with your son. you are showing him all the love our dad did not give to us. naomi you have become a beautiful young lady that reminds me of myself so much lol. i wish we lived closer so we could become much closer but hey things happen & people move away but thank God for cellphones & fb lol.

Dear Clarence,
my big lil bro!!! you do some crazy & stupid stuff sometimes but hey you are a part of my heart & i love you! i have lost you too many times to your stupid actions but i think you are finally on the right track. i just wish there was still another way b/c of all the trouble in the world right now but im still proud of you. you are a marine hoping to one day fight for our country. i just fear that i might lose you. i remember crying so hard when you left for training b/c i know you were in it for good. but i know God has you wrapped in his arms & i hope everything works out for your good.

peace, love, dance
tammy

Day 1 ~ Dear Best Friend

Dear Best Friend(s),

i love you guys!!!!!! jasmine & kiara you guys are my heart. you have been there for me since high school even though we have some dry areas lol. we have experienced about everything together like literally lol. sometimes we barely talk but we always make sure we meet up to party & have an awesome time. i remember we all became close in sign language where we use to get in trouble almost every day for talking of course. i remember being in african american assembly with jasmine & then prom with kiara. the car rides to montclair with jasmine every wednesday & much more. you guys are everything to me & you are willing to put up wit my crazy behind lol.

i use to have a best friend when i was younger but i see that didnt work out. o well the show goes on with or without you. i thought she was the co-star but instead she was an extra & everyone knows they are not really that important. im still shining even brighter than when were younger. You went away to school & forgot where your true friends were but hey you will learn eventually lol. i still love you tiara but i will never chase after you. if you are not God then you are not worth the chase.

i still believe that there is one more person out there that will be my ultimate best friend so this is to you. i cant wait till the day we meet & everything will be awesome & right. i love my besties but you will be there when they are not. you will probably be there more than them lol.

Happy Valentine's Day

hey my loves!! Happy Valentine's day [even though i truly hate it lol]. So i found a new song that I can relate to & it can definitely go wit V-Day. Its called Gravity & its by Sara Bareilles. I found it on youtube when a young lady was dancing to it [which I probably will post later.] This song describes how I feel wit my ex. He got my falling into his gravity which im having a hard time getting away from. Gravity is the strongest force on our planet & i doubt i got the strength to pull away :::sigh:::

Enchanted [the Disney Movie]

hey myloves!!! told you i would be back today lol. but i know im like super late but the week of halloween i finally saw Enchanted. & i must stay i loved it. so of course i stole this summary from some site lol ........



Giselle lives in a forest dreaming of her one true love. Prince Edward hears her singing and they fall in love and plan to wed the following morning. His step-mother the queen wants the threat to her crown removed so pushes Giselle down a well where she enters the 'real' world of New York. Here she meets a divorce attorney (Robert) who is about to become engaged and his 6 year old daughter. They fall in love while Giselle waits for Edward to rescue her. After an incident with a poisoned apple and being saved by true love's kiss, Giselle kills the queen who has turned into a dragon in order to save Robert from certain doom. Edward returns to the animated world with Nancy (Robert's girlfriend) and Giselle stays in New York with Robert and they all live happily ever after.


so yea lol idk but im in love wit this movie [i guess im still hoping there is a real prince charming out there somewhere]. probably gotta keep dreaming on that one. so of course they had some awesome quotes [well actually one that im obsessed with lol] ......

QUOTE TO THINK ABOUT: Everybody has problems. Everybody has bad times. Do we sacrifice all the good times because of them?


FAVORITE QUOTE FOR THE MOMENT: Forget about happily ever after, it doesn't exist.

favorite scene from movie!!!!

Quote of the Week

QUOTE OF THE WEEK:
We've become strangers; but we're strangers with a past

relates to many people in my life [i know sad lol]

Ready for Love

hello bloggers. so my cousin got married the second saturday in may. she looked like a princess who finally found her prince. well she marched in on a song that i wanted to look for but of course i forgot all about it until recentely lol. this artist is definitely awesome & her songs are mind-blowing. she is definitely all about soul & her music is so soothing [i just love her lol]. so the song is by India Arie & it is called "Ready for Love" [which kinda describes my feelings right about now]

I am Ready for Love - India Arie

I am ready for love
Why are you hiding from me
I'd quickly give my freedom
To be held in your captivity

I am ready for love
All of the joy and the pain
And all the time that it takes
Just to stay in your good grace
Lately I've been thinking
Maybe you're not ready for me
Maybe you think I need to learn maturity
They say watch what you ask for
Cause you might receive
But if you ask me tomorrow
I'll say the same thing

I am ready for love
Would you please lend me your ear?
I promise I won't complain
I just need you to acknowledge I am here

If you give me half a chance
I'll prove this to you
I will be patient, kind, faithful and true
To a man who loves music
A man who loves art
Respect's the spirit world
And thinks with his heart

I am ready for love
If you'll take me in your hands
I will learn what you teach
And do the best that I can

I am ready for love
Here with an offering of
My voice
My Eyes
My soul
My mind

Tell me what is enough
To prove I am ready for love

I am ready

yea so thats the song with the lyrics. the song pretty much speaks for itself lol. luv ya bloggers!!!!! ♥

Deep thought

hey bloggers!!! so this morning this glamor chic was definitely feeling down. i woke up @ about six something so i just turned my ipod on hoping to fall asleep again but i definitely didnt. i started looking over some features of my life. & of course one of them was:::

1)no boyfriend to call my own [lol]. so i have been single since january & i can not find a boy who fits my style or wat i really want in a guy. [except for one but he lives in NC which is like a thousand miles away lol] but im like wtf i think im being too picky but a girl shouldnt have to settle for less when she has the whole big world to explore.

Conclusion: so i was down pretty much all through church [mine you im the usher so im always suppose to be happy and greeting people] looking type miserably lol. so my stepdad treated me & my mom plus my auntie & her husband to some red lobster. shrimp always make me feel happy for some odd reason that helped alot [simple explanation ::: such a fat ass lol (excuse the language lol). then on the way home my mom & stepdad had a talk with me.

my mom explained to my stepdad how i think im better than half the chicken heads walking around paterson & he said he dont see anything wrong with that. he explains how im beautiful & that my smile & personality can brighten up any room. then im like thanks & blushing in the back seat & watever. [mine you im dark so it takes alot for me to actually blush lol] then im like i think im too picky wit guys thats y i cant find nobody. i want the perfect guy that doesnt exist. he starts explaining how he does exist somewhere in this world & how im waiting for him ::: he is waiting for me [thats actually put a smile on my face lol] i just have to be patient & apparently its not time for me to be in such a relationsip. that i also have to love myself before i can love somebody else. i have to think about my needs and goals. & when i do find this dude, he is gonna be working for the same high achieving goals as me [ definitely awesome lol].

so my thoughts are: im gonna be patient & wait for my dream guy cuz he does exist within this world. that i have to love myself first and always remember that.

Being Single♥

ok so as the banner says i am single & i've been single for a good minute lol. when im in school i prefer to be single being that i need to focus on my school work & not on my bf & what he doing or watever. but the summer is rolling around & i think my heart is ready to go. yes i need to do some maturing still lol but i will get there [eventually].

the thing is, i look @ alot of my friend's relationships & sometimes they completely turn me away from being in love lol. i mean no relationship is perfect and you are not suppose to think that but sometimes i be like damn she really love him & he straight up bugging. its crazy!!!! so the guy with @least some of the characteristics i love will eventually come my way. I will find him or maybe he will find me & i dont need any help!!! lol

where are all the good guys?!?! like come on!!! lol the ones around are definitely not catching my attention b/c i get bored quit easy. we started talking on some friend stuff & im bored already lol. come on boys it takes alot to please this glamorous chic lol

I Hate This Part Right Here

so this is mood for half of the day ... blog kinda long & just keeps going & going lol

ok so 2day was my ideal way of starting off the week. i woke up feeling pretty good kinda tired but good. so me & slay started having a conversation & we get on the topic of boos. mind u we dont go out i dont think. so he asks do i have a boo & i go yea you. he write ok so then i go do you have a boo he goes maybe lmao sike nah. im like yes u do & she probably be in your dorm room every night & he says if that what u want to believe so i go yea thats what i want to believe. so he goes ok bye ... im like bye??? he goes bye like im done talking. so i go ok then he text back eace u n wesley hope yall have a nice life. {like wtf where the heck this come from} im like its 2 ealry 2 be starting & he like im starting anything im done. so i said you really done with me alright its watever he like ok. i then text ok have a nice life & i should have seen it coming i know you were actng different. he goes wat u talking about how im acting different {all that extra b.s.} im like you treat me like im the extra chick. he goes i gave you everything {no u didnt} i never had 2 pay for anything { cuz we never went out on date or any extra stuff} i dont asking a girl 2 have my baby lightly & 2 met my mom but im acting different. i put ok then he goes i think you the perfect match for me & u broke up wit me in the 1st place {yes i did cuz i felt like u was acting like a hoe again}. he goes i never gave you a reason not 2 trust me then i go you stay on campus thats enough right there. then starts talking about my facebook & my myspace {has some1 send me messages in my honesty box & stuff like we still in high skool then he got the nerve not 2 tell me who it is}. then he like i got reasons not 2 trust u & then he starts with the whole wesley issue so i explain that me & him wasnt 2gether when i was messing wit my bestie wesley u feel me. so he goes if i had a girl in my dorm i could use that as an excuse so i go i wouldnt have cared cuz we werent 2gether. he goes i never stopped caring im like yes u did u said it in ur facebook status that u wish u never meet then he gets into the whole he dont remember saying that but he probably did.

so i talked my close buddy tasha & she helped me with this aggravating 2 early in freakin morning issue. so after me & her talked i apologized 2 him {y i did it 1st b/c he 2 bold 2 it 1st} so then he apologize & we havent talked since then.

maybe my buddy tasha is right that im not ready 4 a bf yet or @least i dont wanna be with him anymore. idk gotta definitely pray on it. he is leaving i think wednesday 4 skool so maybe we need time apart cuz he gonna be doing his pledging thing so he not gonna have time 4 me this semester.idk time will tell if anything will ever happen & improve between us.