one last cry

hey bloggers i know it has definitely been awhile. lately life has been ok nothing major or minor you feel me. so whenever i write a blog from now on im gonna try 2 find a song 2 match wats going on. this weeks song is Brian McKnight: One Last Cry (just the end part)

One last cry, before I leave it all behind

I've gotta put you outta my mind this time

Stop living a lie

I know I gotta be strong

Cause round me life goes on and on and on

And on.....I'm gonna dry my eyes

Right after I had my one last cry

today @ church my mom's friend gave me a word. i have a tendency of letting things go in one ear & out the other. but this word i think im gonna let it stay with me. you see she starts to go into my past. my past i was trying 2 forget cuz i was heart-broken in a way. i thought i had covered up the wounds but i didnt. it was slowly pulling me away from church & even some of my friends. i just didnt want to deal with any1 finding out how i really feel so i started 2 forget the pain. but she brought it back up & showed me that i wasnt over it & that it is definitely time 2 let go. let go of the heart-ache & the pain & start over but under God of course.

So its time for the healing process to begin. for me to smile b/c i am actually happy & not b/c im trying to cover up whats inside. i guess i will definitely cry my last tear over the whole situation & start 2 heal so i can move on with my life.

Brokenhearted .......

Brandy - Brokenhearted - Brandy

ok so im pretty much brokenhearted. me & my ex are officially done this time. i guess it hurts cuz i really was feeling this boy but he doesnt believe me. he thinks all i do is cheat but the ironic things is when i did what i did we werent together. me & him wasnt talking but yet i am still wrong. maybe i am but he is blaming everything on me. he blames me i blame him we get nowhere. we probably now wont say anything to each other at all for a long time maybe forever. he is gonna move on & im still gonna be brokenhearted. idk what to do. all i could do early was go in the bathroom & cry. mascara running down my cheeks & my tissue turning black from me wiping my cheeks. i really loved this boy but he doesnt believe me & i think thats the part that hurts me the most. i wanted to spend my life with him but he didnt believe mw. he never believed. & im getting all sad again. i guess another night of crying myself to sleep. till we meet again peace & much love bloggers.