Weekend fun when I should have been studying

ok so i definitely enjoyed my weekend. on friday @ first my students were truly getting on my nerves but after awhile i started to enjoy myself. i cant stay mad at them for too long lol. then friday night i went out wit the bestie tash to help support her musician boo & thats when i meet his friend. he is a cool dude but idk lol. then saturday i went to do my income tax & some how i owe money to the irs like wtf. first i dont even make that much to start wit so how i owe money. stupid government always trying to take someones money lol. then i came home did my laundry then went to this youth thing @ my church which was fun as usual. after that i spent the night with my besties jasmine & kiara at the mall trying to find some shawties but of course most of them were pre-teens or high school kids lol. of course i spent most of my time today in church especially since it was communion. then i told myself i will stay home, finish my paper, & study. but did i??? of course the responds to that question is a big NO lol. went to my aunt cookout and just chilled @ her house playing kick ball & stuff. so now im trying to finish my paper & study for my big histoy test which im probably gonna get another C on but im really shooting for an A lol we will see. love ya bloggers!!!!

My Thursday & Friday

well yesterday was an idk mixed feeling day lol. the morning i was suppose 2 go get coffee with my bestie but once again he forgot which is a sign that he doesnt wanna do it anymore which is fine by me. instead i finally when back to the gym & i got a good workout in. legs & stomach were definitely burning but it felt good. it felt like the fat was burning away lol. im gonna try to work out every week @least once so i can stay in shape. dont really need to lose weigh but just stay in shape.

then we had a staff meeting last night. it wasnt your typical sit in a circle talk about things happening @ our job. it was more like go to ms illen[however you spell her name] house to put with her animals at the dinner table & her stupid attitude. all i have to say is never again, never again lol. the food was good but it was definitely organic which of course is not sitting right with my stomach right about now. didnt get home till like 10 which is so past my bed time lol.

so im sitting in my bed looking a hot mess just listening to music and the rain falling outside. the weather was so sexy yesterday & now its raining which means i will be soaking wet by time i get to work lol. work is gonna be fun cuz we having GIRL DAY!!! NO BOYS ALLOWED!!!! to celebrate women's history month, which means i get to wear my favorite color which is pink!!! got plans for the night with the bestie Tash to see her boo ivory. cant wait for that!!! im gonna have dope day lol

April Babies!!!!!

hey bloggers!!! long time no talk lol. guess what??? my b-day is definitely this month on the 14th so save the date lol. i will be turning the BIG 20!!! with me turning 20 i definitely wanna change some things about my appearnace cuz my style @ this moment is officially wack. just wanna improve it just alil bit lol. i wanted to color my hair & maybe cut it alil bit but im not sure yet. not looking to change my goofy & retarded personality cuz that will always just be me. so i got about 2 weeks to decide what i want to do to my appearance. until then i will rock my t-shirts & black sneaks lol. peace out my loves!!!!

ARPRIL BABIES

Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret.Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality??? Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless??? Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory??? Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.[bow chicka wah wah]..

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine♥

Pocketful Of Sunshine - Natasha Bedingfield

bloggers!!!! so this weekend has been one emotional rollercoaster. the ending theme for this crazy weekend is Natasha Bedingfield "Pocketful of Sunshine". so this whole weekend it feel my almost perfect world was changing & crumbling around me & there was nothing i could do to stop it. of course one of the besties snap me back into reality & that life is not fair & its definitely unpredictable. all i can do is live & learn & move on. so my attitude this morning was ten times better & im learning to appreciate this boring crazy life im stuck living lol.

The Cheetah Girls: Cinderella

GALLERIA:]
When I was just a little girl
My mama used to tuck me into bed
And she'd read me a story.

[CHANEL:]
It always was about a princess in distress
And how a guy would save her
And end up with the glory.

[DORINDA:]
I'd lie in bed
And think about
The person that I wanted to be.

[AQUA:]
Then one day I realized
The fairy tale life wasn’t for me.

[CHORUS – ALL:]
I don’t wanna be like Cinderella
Sitting in a dark, cold, dusty cellar
Waiting for somebody to come and set me free
I don’t wanna be like someone, waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On my own I will survive
Unless somebody's on my side
Don't wanna depend on no one else
I’d rather rescue myself.

[ALL:](this verse not in the video)
Someday I'm gonna find someone
Who wants my soul, heart and mind
Who's not afraid to show that he loves me
Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am
Don't need nobody taking care of me
I will be there for him just as strong as he will be there for me
When I give myself then it has got to be an equal thing.

[CHORUS – ALL:]

[ALL:]
I can slay my own dragons. (My own dragons)
I can dream my own dreams. (My own dreams)
My knight in shining armor (shining armor) is me.
So I'm gonna set me free.

[CHORUS – ALL:] 3x


ok so i was listening to radio disney [yes i said it radio disney] the other day & this song came on. i loved it when it first came out but kinda forgot all about it after that.[thanks to high school musical & all those other stupid musicals lol] so this song is kinda my theme for the moment. kinda like neyo's miss independent & she got her own but disney version. not really into the relationship thing @ this point anyway so its time 4 me 2 handle my business of course with no help from some dude [lol] i mean one day i will find someone special that i will love to share my world with but right now im doing me & enjoying every moment of it. i love disney!!!!!!

The Last Lecture

hello bloggers!!!!! ok so i dedicate this blog to Dr. Paul Pausch. Today in my FCST 270 class @ school we watched a video about a man giving his last lecture. He had cancer which sadly has taken him away from his family & his students. All of the things within his speech was true. By the end of his speech half of my class was in tears. So his speech from myspace cuz of course youtube was working against me lol. luv ya bloggers!!!!!♥♥♥

one last cry

hey bloggers i know it has definitely been awhile. lately life has been ok nothing major or minor you feel me. so whenever i write a blog from now on im gonna try 2 find a song 2 match wats going on. this weeks song is Brian McKnight: One Last Cry (just the end part)

One last cry, before I leave it all behind

I've gotta put you outta my mind this time

Stop living a lie

I know I gotta be strong

Cause round me life goes on and on and on

And on.....I'm gonna dry my eyes

Right after I had my one last cry

today @ church my mom's friend gave me a word. i have a tendency of letting things go in one ear & out the other. but this word i think im gonna let it stay with me. you see she starts to go into my past. my past i was trying 2 forget cuz i was heart-broken in a way. i thought i had covered up the wounds but i didnt. it was slowly pulling me away from church & even some of my friends. i just didnt want to deal with any1 finding out how i really feel so i started 2 forget the pain. but she brought it back up & showed me that i wasnt over it & that it is definitely time 2 let go. let go of the heart-ache & the pain & start over but under God of course.

So its time for the healing process to begin. for me to smile b/c i am actually happy & not b/c im trying to cover up whats inside. i guess i will definitely cry my last tear over the whole situation & start 2 heal so i can move on with my life.