bloggers!!!! so this weekend has been one emotional rollercoaster. the ending theme for this crazy weekend is Natasha Bedingfield "Pocketful of Sunshine". so this whole weekend it feel my almost perfect world was changing & crumbling around me & there was nothing i could do to stop it. of course one of the besties snap me back into reality & that life is not fair & its definitely unpredictable. all i can do is live & learn & move on. so my attitude this morning was ten times better & im learning to appreciate this boring crazy life im stuck living lol.
GALLERIA:] When I was just a little girl My mama used to tuck me into bed And she'd read me a story.
[CHANEL:] It always was about a princess in distress And how a guy would save her And end up with the glory.
[DORINDA:] I'd lie in bed And think about The person that I wanted to be.
[AQUA:] Then one day I realized The fairy tale life wasn’t for me.
[CHORUS – ALL:] I don’t wanna be like Cinderella Sitting in a dark, cold, dusty cellar Waiting for somebody to come and set me free I don’t wanna be like someone, waiting For a handsome prince to come and save me On my own I will survive Unless somebody's on my side Don't wanna depend on no one else I’d rather rescue myself.
[ALL:](this verse not in the video) Someday I'm gonna find someone Who wants my soul, heart and mind Who's not afraid to show that he loves me Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am Don't need nobody taking care of me I will be there for him just as strong as he will be there for me When I give myself then it has got to be an equal thing.
[CHORUS – ALL:]
[ALL:] I can slay my own dragons. (My own dragons) I can dream my own dreams. (My own dreams) My knight in shining armor (shining armor) is me. So I'm gonna set me free.
[CHORUS – ALL:] 3x
ok so i was listening to radio disney [yes i said it radio disney] the other day & this song came on. i loved it when it first came out but kinda forgot all about it after that.[thanks to high school musical & all those other stupid musicals lol] so this song is kinda my theme for the moment. kinda like neyo's miss independent & she got her own but disney version. not really into the relationship thing @ this point anyway so its time 4 me 2 handle my business of course with no help from some dude [lol] i mean one day i will find someone special that i will love to share my world with but right now im doing me & enjoying every moment of it. i love disney!!!!!!
hello bloggers!!!!! ok so i dedicate this blog to Dr. Paul Pausch. Today in my FCST 270 class @ school we watched a video about a man giving his last lecture. He had cancer which sadly has taken him away from his family & his students. All of the things within his speech was true. By the end of his speech half of my class was in tears. So his speech from myspace cuz of course youtube was working against me lol. luv ya bloggers!!!!!♥♥♥
hey bloggers i know it has definitely been awhile. lately life has been ok nothing major or minor you feel me. so whenever i write a blog from now on im gonna try 2 find a song 2 match wats going on. this weeks song is Brian McKnight: One Last Cry (just the end part)
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on and on
And on.....I'm gonna dry my eyes
Right after I had my one last cry
today @ church my mom's friend gave me a word. i have a tendency of letting things go in one ear & out the other. but this word i think im gonna let it stay with me. you see she starts to go into my past. my past i was trying 2 forget cuz i was heart-broken in a way. i thought i had covered up the wounds but i didnt. it was slowly pulling me away from church & even some of my friends. i just didnt want to deal with any1 finding out how i really feel so i started 2 forget the pain. but she brought it back up & showed me that i wasnt over it & that it is definitely time 2 let go. let go of the heart-ache & the pain & start over but under God of course.
So its time for the healing process to begin. for me to smile b/c i am actually happy & not b/c im trying to cover up whats inside. i guess i will definitely cry my last tear over the whole situation & start 2 heal so i can move on with my life.
If I wrote a note to God I would speak whats in my soul I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away, For love to overflow If I wrote a note to God I'd pour my heart out on each page I'd ask for war to end For peace to mend this world I'd say, I'd say, I'd say
Chorus Give us the strength to make it through Help us find love cause love is over due And it looks like we haven't got a clue Need some help from you Grant us the faith to carry on Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong On this road we're on
If I wrote a note to God I would say what on my mind I'd ask for wisdom to let compassion rule this world Until these times If I wrote a note to God I'd say please help us find our way End all the bitterness, put some tenderness in our hearts And I'd say, I'd say, I'd say
Chorus
No, no no no We can't do this on our own So
Chorus
If I wrote a note to God
so this is how i have been feeling lately. i have been praying more & more cuz everything just seems 2 get worst then better. my life is whole right now but i look around & others are suffering & its breaking my heart. so i dedicate this blog to all my buddies who are going thru. i am praying for you & remember that God loves you. its all a test to see how much you can bare & remember God will never put more on you than you can bare. he knows your limits & he hears you cries & sees your tears. be encouraged everyone.
hello bloggers!!! it has been awhile but so much has happened you see.
me & kideem were @ it once again. He said he wanted 2 be friends with me & thats not where my heart was. So went on again got close but slowly started to part again. So me & him went a couple of days without speaking but i say his status on facebook & he was thinking about some other chic. of course i hit him up but he didnt respond like usual. so then his status turn 2 piss & im like wats up he like im going thru alot so i said do u want 2 talk about it & he goes no. He never wants 2 talk about stuff with me but yea im suppose 2 b his girl. so i asked him r u talking 2 some1 if so why wont u just tell me 2 leave. he gets mad & says if thats how u feel then bye. idk how many times he has told me bye & that was the end of our relationship. so im crying 2 my besties tasha, wes, & my cousin aria & they like girl how many times we gotta tell u 2 leave him alone. He finally set in cuz i was definitely tired of crying you feel me??? lol so i stop hitting him up then its the day before his b-day & he trying 2 figure out y we havent talked in awhile so we decided we need 2 talk. so his b-day pass & finally we talk. now he like wat r we im like friends & i can tell his md as changed. he really thought that i was gonna keep coming back 2 him. i cry myself 2 sleep while he parties & takes pics wit girls bent over infront of him thats crazy & i was just tired. i can tell our friendship has flown out the window down stories of windows & lay died on the sidewalk. i wont be surprise if his relationship on facebook change cuz he pobabl got a girl down there anyway lol. but thats the past & its time for the future & its looking real bright.
ok so i have figured out that next door 2 happiness lives sorrow. (yes these are the lyrics from gotham city by r kelly lol) you see when i was down all my friends were up. now im up & the people i talk 2 all the time r down. you see my besties since elementary tasha is going thru. we may fight most of the time & not agree on stuff half the time but i still hate 2 see her hurt. u see this chich is strong as hell & 2 her say that crazy shit (excuse my language) i know she was @ her lowest. so not kool 2 the person who put her there. then my bestie wes from job was right there 4 me when i was going thru threatening me like usual but last night i never heard him so down. something about liars which i know is his pet peeve. i try 2 encourage him but of course he always say "i dont care"!!! i think thats his fav word so serious lol. but all i can tell them is 2 keep ur head up & just keep pressing. it cant rain forever..........
hello everyone. I feel like i havent been on here in a long time lol. well me & my besties have been up to no good as usual. so lately our chill spots have been guitar center, ivory's house (tasha's boo), & quest lounge. Guitar center was super fun especially playing on the instruments & stuff then ivory house was even more fun with dancing in the hallway, & then ghetto quest lounge was good as well lol. (of course me & my besties stole the spotlight & all the other birds were jealous as hell lol). So here are some pics & videos from those nights.
